I'd just like to escape my own thoughts. But it's impossible and it feels horrible. I'm stuck inside of my head. It's a cage one can't break out of.
I feel like they don't need me now. No place for me. Not for now.
My head's a big mess. It hurts hurts hurts. Oi, medicine. My guilty pleasure.
Sometimes I feel like I'm no human at all. I think I don't behave like the others. Maybe I'm a robot. Or a species of my own.
I'm violent. I'm impulsive. I'm childish. They don't even know me.
I just wish I had a switch I could turn off. My mind would go all blank and I could be in peace for a moment. All black and silent... No pain, there's nothing. Just wonderful silence and peace of mind.
I want to live. I want to lay on the springlike, bare ground. And just inhale.... exhale.
Oh man, I can't even describe how I feel right now. So, end of story.