butterfly

smother

How do you do.

I baked cinnamon buns today! 40 total, but only 39 survived 'til the end. Today was such and grey and miserable day. I was feeling down and I thought that I could bake... Yeah.

Also, I went through some photos JiiBee took from our musical. It made me feel so much better.

Random dance after the actual show. We ♥ Kokoro no Kiba!

Father & son moment with crazy huskys : D

Partying in Hokkaido-style!

Well, that's about it for today.

Olen taas kattanut lautaset kahdelle huvikseen vaan,

vaikka tiedän, että kolmeen viikkoon et oo kotonakaan

fingertip

The feeling of loneliness

is like breathing misty air

on an early morning.

here i go !

The beginning of my very first summer job at the home for the aged.

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Confusion paves my way towards the light.

Paranoia smothers me just one step away from...

King tells me not to bury the voice that's not yet spoken.

And I won't,

but Paranoia holds my left hand,

yanking me backwards,

while my right fingertips are almost touching

the light of Confusion.

requiem

Sometimes when I just can't cope
I cling to a desperate hope

HA. Now I've done something I hate. An angst post. Enjoy! (It was waaaay more awful... :'D)

not me

First: I've had a bad day. It calls for internet whining!! YAAAAAAAY WE ALL LOVE PEOPLE WHO ANGST ON THE INTERNETS, DON'T WE?!

I'd just like to escape my own thoughts. But it's impossible and it feels horrible. I'm stuck inside of my head. It's a cage one can't break out of.

I feel like they don't need me now. No place for me. Not for now.

My head's a big mess. It hurts hurts hurts. Oi, medicine. My guilty pleasure.

Sometimes I feel like I'm no human at all. I think I don't behave like the others. Maybe I'm a robot. Or a species of my own.

I'm violent. I'm impulsive. I'm childish. They don't even know me.

I just wish I had a switch I could turn off. My mind would go all blank and I could be in peace for a moment. All black and silent... No pain, there's nothing. Just wonderful silence and peace of mind.

I want to live. I want to lay on the springlike, bare ground. And just inhale.... exhale.

Oh man, I can't even describe how I feel right now. So, end of story.