requiem

Sometimes when I just can't cope
I cling to a desperate hope

HA. Now I've done something I hate. An angst post. Enjoy! (It was waaaay more awful... :'D)

pieces of me, my life

Yep, went to Bakacon 2011 at Pieksämäki and had lots of fun ♥

Yep, went to see Stage live. Our school is in the semi-finals! ♥

Yep, went to my American friend's American Boxed Food Party. I can't believe they really eat this stuff... :'D I mean, it's all artificiaaaaal... SO FAKEEE XD This photo includes: Nutty Bars, raspberry (I...think?) Jell-O, Jell-O pudding, brownies, Moist Supreme cake & frosting, marshmallows, two different Kool Aids, blueberry muffins, Rice Crispies and Mac&Cheese. And we had also Tuna Helper. For example that blueberry muffin-package said "Imitation blueberries, artificial taste" oh God... And my friend claimed this all to be "pretty healthy" :D

Yep, went & baked muffins. REAL blueberry muffins. With white chocolate. And uhm... To be honest I've never made better ones so I'm pretty darn happy. (:

Get yourself a bouncy feeling!

i need no parties

"Kaipuu

Ne saapuvat taas,

ihanat kesäyöt joina saa rakastua,

upota vihreään syliin,

tuntea metsän syke,

maailman pauhu

kun se nuoruuden korvissa kohisee.

Taipua syliin lailla veden

johon kultaiset seitit ovat jo kudotut-

ja kun syttyy tuli - tuli

joka roihuten kohottaa keskiyön,

alla yöttömän taivaan ja käkikuoron

elo huumassa heinäkuun

kehollasi kutkuttaa

kun rikot peilipinnan."

happiness

Either:
1) Something super bad is going to happen.
2) Karma is paying back her old debts.

...because I am happy. I mean... I just... There's nothing wrong. Everything is perfect and beyond! The whole world just shines before me. Too good things happen to me... But I deserve this feeling. I do.

No, I'm not high. I'm just... Filled with this cozy feeling of happiness. Can you imagine it? The feeling when you're bubbling inside because everything is going perfectly. This may not last long but... I enjoy it with every cell of mine!! ♥

I do have reasons:
- Bakacon and all the great people I met and got to know and all and all and all and all!! AND YOU TOO ♥
- Hopeanuoli!musikaali (GNG!musical)... This one holds a story actually. I enjoy our practices A LOT. But to top it all... The original creator of Ginga Nagareboshi Gin is the quest of honor in Tracon where we are going to perform. It's... It's such an honor. And we ended up in the same event by coincidence!! WE ARE GOING TO PERFORM TO THE WORLD FAMOUS MANGAKA WITH HIS OWN PIECE OF WORK. OH MY FUCKING GOD !!!!!!! ♥

- Finland won the ice hockey world championshiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiip!!! ♥
- I got my larp profile and bought some of the props already (:
- This one might seem a small one but... I bough a paintbrush today! It's super thin, 0. I love it and want to give it a try but I don't have the inspiration yet. And I found old watercolours so I want to try them and and and I bought more water colour paper sososo I really want to give a try to it too andandand!!!
- I'm going to watch Stage live at Helsinki on Wednesday! Our school is still in the competition!! ♥

HHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

But no photos this time. AHAHA I AM LAZZZZYYYYYYY.

But then I also have some more serious chit-chat :'D

There's a thing that has been bugging me for a while now. I'm a computer addict, REALLY! Oh my God. I spent way too much time in front of the computer. And then I whine about how I am not good at anything. A while ago I began to think how much free time I would have if I didn't use computer at all. And if I had used that time well I would be good at drawing. I would. Be. Good. So I decided to free my Wednesdays! This little experiment sounds so good... I can bake, read, draw, draw, draw, watch movies I haven't watched, come up with good LARP ideas, EVEN GO JOGGING LOL and maybe finally start planning the children's book that has been on my mind for a while now. And when I have my violin I could practise andandand~ So, byebye computer (for one day of the week, lol.) I'll also decrease my usage of the computer in the other days of the week as well. Tried it today, it's hard. So this is going to be so helpful for me.

UNTIL NEXT TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ ♥

i'm the sweetest mistake of your life

Hi darlings! ♥

Too few people know about this lovely Finnish artist, Heli Kajo. I get chills from some of her songs and I don't get chills easily, I tell you! I like almost all of her songs. They have nice France-like atmosphere to them and the lyrics are so... honest that it's just too sweet. I like:

♥ Sebastian
♥ Jos mä oisin tyttö/If I Was a Girl
♥ Elämäsi suloisin virhe/The Sweetest Mistake of Your Life
♥ Juhlat/Party
♥ Annankadun kulmassa/In the Corner of Annankatu Street
♥ Perhonen/Butterfly (the most beautiful of them all!)
♥ Ranskis/Frenchman
... to name a few!!

Anyway you should give her a try! I've been waiting for her first album for like... a year or so x'D

ps! I got my 3rd babies ex tempore a couple of days ago !! ♥

that's me

Hello you all!

I've been.. a bit lazy updating this but whatever! My life, my blog, my laziness xD
I was selling Vappu balloons for 11 hours in both Saturday and Sunday. Ugh, it was a shitty job but hey, money talks. Now I have money to travel to our Ginga Nagareboshi Gin musical practises ♥

Some big things are happening.

Sorry, no photos today! But a boring meaningless update : D

This
is something I forbade from myself.

Maybe I subconsciously knew
that this would be a breaking point.
The first signs.

This is exciting.
In a good way

and the other.

But as always,

uncertainty lives.