name

(c) Rewe - Rewe's little thing
That's me and the best cat ever, Pekko. My friend Rewe drew this for my boyfriend because today is his name day. This also slightly refers to a dream Rewe saw. In that dream I told her that my boyfriend(-to-be) is my girlfriend. Happy name day dear ♥

Here's also plenty of me, lol. All credits go to my little sister(s).

My bear-hunting dog-cat Tiempo (Titi) ♥

notice

Hi to you who shall not pass!

Sneak peek! I'm knitting a scarf for my boyfriend. My goal is to knit 10cm per day and so far everything's going smoothly~ I had a little trouble getting things started because last time I knit was in elementary school (I think.), and that's almost six years ago.

I finally managed to pull myself together and decorate my calendar! "Elontahti" means "The Rate of Life". I just wanted to be more... "creative" and use some nice words instead of just plain "calendar".



I painted the cover for Elontahti black and smudged my floor. So uhm, I started writing random words because I felt like it. Thank God I wiped it away pretty soon, otherwise it would've stuck there :'D (I didn't clean up my desk in time and now it has ink stains... And the desk is not mine =_=;;)

My boyfriend and his friends are amazing. The princess of Sweden, Victoria, and her husband Daniel visited Finland this week. My bf and his friends had composed a song about Daniel quite some time ago and they played it to the royals - twice. The second time made it to the publicity and a couple of internet magazines wrote little articles of them. Vickan and Daniel seemed to like them a lot :D

Here's a link to the video.

ps. Our Pack started a website/blog about our musical and other stuff, feel free to read it ! http://hopeanuolimusikaali.wordpress.com/

mitä jos ei usko mihinkään,
saako silti hengittää

ja otsaasi hellästi silittää?

leaves like butterflies

Hi!

It's funny. At the same time I feel like I don't do anything or I don't have any projects but when I stop to think about it I have lots of stuff to do. I also have my two little autumn traditions... : D

This autumn

- I'll draw autumn the third (can't wait ! : D)

- I'll do my "Poetess' October 2011"- diary. (last year I did it only halfway, this year I'll try making it the best so far. (I've done this since 2009.)) Basically I write a poem each day about daily happenings for the whole October. This year I may want to illustrate it as well. I came up with this idea myself but later heard that other people have done this before. Oh well.

- I'll watch a whole anime series from the beginning to the end! I sit in front of the computer but rarely finish any series. This year I've managed to watch Kaiji and Ginga: Nagareboshi Gin. I have three episodes left of Ika Musume (season 1) and today I started watching Star Driver since my friends talked about it. Me & KiBi are also planning to watch Ginga Densetsu Weed together. I also need to watch Hanasaku Iroha!! I like it but I forgot to watch it every week so I'm faaar behind with the episodes.

- THIS WEEKEND! I'll spend it with my lovely pack of dogs ♥ Our musical group (well, some of it) will get together and watch lots of musicals ^^ (Moulin Rouge for example... Even though I don't care about it much.) Also, we have to talk about certain things ; D

Some of our brave dogs. Please click to enlarge! ♥ Photo (c) Emilia Lahtinen

- AND NEXT WEEK! ...I'll finally see my boyfriend... I've been melancholic because I miss him. KiBi ♥ ; _ ;

- And I'm part of a roleplaying campaign each Friday!

- I have a larp in three weeks... Can't wait for more info!

- And and and and I have at least three theatre projects in school plus one which I am planning. : D

Oh. So much to do. : D I have to finnish Watership Down as well... I still love the book even though I've only read half of it : D I ALSO HAVE TO DRAW MORE, RAAAAAR. (Instead of only complaining about it, I should just shut my computer and draw.)

Random pieces from my drawing diary for school. Some of them made with heart, others... Well... :'D

I love all kinds of projects more than anything, but I tend to lose heart at times and feel like I can't do anything. I try my best to keep a smiley face!

Ikävä synnyttää runon

johon haluaisin kietoa

syksyn ja sen lehdet.

ps. If you're interested in reading about our musical's behind-the-scenes problems, please read this. (Sorry, Finnish only.)

life is musical

It's over.

Yet I don't feel like it's over. Our musical I mean. Our long-term project, Hopeanuoli!musikaali. (Ginga: Nagareboshi Gin!musical/Silver Fang!musical).

Last Friday everything was a complete mess. Our microphones didn't work, we had problems with lights and timing the music, the head of our Akakabuto kept on dropping, the cardboard bears were unfinished... To cut a long stroy short: we didn't have a decent, complete dress rehearsal.

So, on Saturday afternoon we tried the cardboard bear battle, we didn't have time to go through the whole musical. I sewed the head of Akakabuto with our Wilson and we didn't have time to test it on stage.

Then the workers let the audience in. I had checked before, there was quite a line behind those doors. After the show I heard that every seat was taken, the VIP balcony was full, people were even standing there and in the end of the rows, some even sat on the stairs even though it was forbidden and still, over 50 people (some say over hundred, some even more...) couldn't get in.

When it started I was nervous. Nervous if the audience would like the musical or not. But when they clapped hands after our opening choreography I knew we couldn't fail. So the musical went on and everything went almost perfect. After the ending, the audience clapped their hand for like six minutes straight and I was just... overwhelmed. The audience gave us so much strength I can't even describe it!

In the middle of the great battle against Akakabuto I saw Yoshihiro Takahashi in the front row. The creator of Ginga series. The world-famous Takahashi-sensei. After the show, he suprised us by visiting the backstage, telling us that he had cried and then he took many photos with us and shook our hands. It was such an honor.

Whole crew with Takahashi.

Many people asked why we only had one show and why we were in the small hall when there was a big one. We got loads of compliments and I haven't heard a single comment which was completely negative. And this was truly heartwarming: some little girls waited for an hour to get an autograph from our Gin.

During this time, from December to September, our group has overcame difficulties, made new friends and some even call us their "mental family". I started dating my very dear friend and I think all thanks go to this musical and Rewe. (I was always like "NOOOO I'm never gonna start dating him, we're good as friends" :D But things happened, hahaha! I'm glad.) But I bet we all are going to stick together, some more, some less, but still. Many things await us in the future and nobody can tear us apart, nobody can tear apart Hopeanuoli!musical! Auuuuu~

You can watch the whole musical on YouTube (Finnish only).

Avaan ikkunan

hengitän sisään maisemaa,

niin täydellistä, että pelottaa.

Pelkään että aika ajaa meidät erilleen.

Mitä sitten teen,

mitä sitten teen?

Eikä ajatella sitä kuka on kenenkin,

että meillä kaikilla on kotikin.

Toisilla on joku, joka siellä odottaa.

Nyt ei kukaan muista,

eikä tahdokaan.

Kiitos.

Forgive me for dreaming it's all I have left

Hey! ♥

So much has been happening over the past few days... :'D

♥♥♥ FIRST OF ALL ♥♥♥

MY SCHOOL MADE IT!! TYK WON THE FIRST STAGE EVER!! These guys earned it!! I'm sooooo happy. It's good to be a TYKer!! (lol, I made a new English word...)

Anyway guys what's uuuuuup? Last weekend we were yet again working & eating hard on our GNG!musical practises. 8) I had a blast, thanks my dear friends ♥

We went & made sushi. I'm so happy that I managed to stick a grain of rice to my cheeeeek!

We also played with fridge magnets :'D The last one says: "Don't you go youngster, there's an insane girl between us, the autumn hesitates to wake up, secretly." I'M SO POETIC HAHAHA :D

Then our school had this outdoors event to celebrate the end of the schoolyear. We had a bubble party, can you imagine? :'D Also improvisation theatre and bands playing on the roof 8)

It's a poor picture but my friend got scars after running to a tightrope which was meant for -obviously- tightrope walking.

And KiBi, if you ever read this, this one's for you:

Today we had a picnic party which will be one of the last things our group can do together for a while, since lots of people are graduating...

AND YES I WENT & BOUGHT THE SPEEEEEEED OF DARKNEEEEEES BY FLOGGING MOLLY! ♥



The songs are:

Speed of Darkness

I LOVE HOW IT STARTS! One of my absolute favourite song intros. (My fav is Streetlight Manifesto's We Will Fall Together ♥) Also, a pretty good song overall ^^

Revolution
I was kind of hoping that a song called "Revolution" would've had a lot of power but well, it sounds almost happy but has a serious message.

The Heart of the Sea
Well this song really takes you to the dark, misty sea... I kind of like this song because of it's atmosphere.

Don't Shut 'Em Down

The first single of this album, yupyup. Well... Kind of a nice song. ... .. :'D Different from the usual Molly style. I love the bass by the way.

The Power's Out
I love this song for the energy it unleashes towards the end but the rest is kind of blah. But the blah also needs to be listened so the nice ending has a meaning (: (Do not ask what I'm trying to explain... x'D)

So Sail On

An ordinary calm Flogging Molly song I'd say.

Saints & Sinners
I kind of like this song. Nothing more to say. But I kind of like it. xD

The Present State of Grace
A song that I don't care for much. :'D A bit boring perhaps...

The Cradle of Humankind
It's refreshing to hear piano in FM songs (: But I'm not much of a fan of slow songs... But this is a nice one and somehow reminds me of... of a song which name I can't remember.

Oliver Boy (All of Our Boys)
I have to say that this is one of my favourites from this album and not because of the Oliver in the name! (Oliver is my favourite name ever x3) This is the one that'll get stuck in your head.

A Prayer For Me in Silence
Every time I listen to this I just think "Awww Reagan and King singing together". x'D A calm, under-2-minutes song.

Rise Up
A nice ending for a nice album, but a little forgettable... : /

Overall I liked this album after first listening more than I liked Float after first listening. (Now I'd say that Float is my 2nd favourite of FM albums. I think Within a Mile of Home will always be my favourite one. :') ♥) It's a bit different from the safe, usual Molly style while not being different at all. It's funny. :D

So umm yeah~! What a long post. I'll give cookie to everyone who reads this completely!



It's such a hard thing,
to keep myself together.

yourself shaked, myself stirred

Do you ever get a fearful feeling that somebody you love will just get fed up with you and not like you anymore? I don't necessarily mean a relationship, but... Friendship. Because for me, my friends are everything. I try to hold them dear even though I have a boyfriend. I kind of dislike all these couples who only see each other and they don't spend time with their friends anymore. But, to the topic, I'd like to speak a little of my friends.

~

He really is a precious friend of mine. So veryvery precious. I've never met a boy like him before and I doubt I never will again. But I get this feeling from him, the feeling I mentioned at the beginning. I have no idea why. (Well I'm paranoid most of the time...) Our future scares me. Maybe sometime we will not be like us anymore. What will happen then?

We used to be so close, but something happened with her. Her attitude just started to irritate me. The way she treats other people. People she dislikes. But I think she really doesn't want to be mean. So I don't know what to think of her anymore.

He has changed a little from the first I met him, but actually it doesn't matter anymore. I had to grow a little as a person because of him. I still struggle with this little, meaningless thing but... Someday I'll overcome it. At the moment I feel like he understands me the most and we have a lot of things to discuss. He's a very dear friend of mine and I'd like to keep in touch with him, like, forever.

All people have their share of problems and no problem should be belittled. I have somewhat difficult problems, so sometimes I just don't feel like taking care of her anymore. Her problems seem so tiny. And there are really no reasons behind them. Or at least I think so. I've never heard of anything big. We try our best to help her, but it seems like she doesn't listen to us. So we feel helpless. But she is a nice person and she really has no need to worry about stupid little things!! ♥

Even though I've known her the longest we are not that close. I wish we were more close. I really love her childishness but she really needs to grow up a little. Her sister can't always be there "protecting" her. I don't mean that she has to act all mature, being tiny and cute is just perfect, but she's way too innocent for her age... I think she needs little a wake-up slap. Honestly. Just a little.

I don't feel like writing of anybody else right now. I've just wanted to say some of the things above but when I try to say them, I just don't feel like saying them anymore. I'm a little bit of a coward. If those described above ever end up here, they will recognize themselves. Maybe then we can finally discuss some things.

Still, oh, how much I love them. ♥

~

ps !! our school ball is coming!! here's a little hint of what my outfit will include.

♥ i'm going to be a silly princess !! ♥